Starting over cd4

Today - Shoot the last four days - have been a mess. I went on a dinner cruise on Thursday night with the spotting. As soon as the boat started up I got sick. Then I was sick for the next three hours of the cruise. Everyone else was on the Potamac I was on the Titanic. DH' attitude was horrible. So we had a huge fight. Then I had to deal with realizing this cycle definitely was a failure. I probably have cried non-stop since. Friday morning AF was full steam and I couldn't get out the bathroom because of the tears. Then the RE didn't want me to come in until Monday. I was sure he was ready to drop me. Or say you can only do IVF - which we can't afford. They did find two small cyst but have decided to go on anyway. Shots tonight 200 mg. Here we go again.