I need you Jesus

Jesus,

I need you bad today. I woke up to horrible leg cramps and three hours later the cramps still hurt. I could tell you details on how bad this day has been and I have only been awake three hours. I am not doing well at all. I broke down on the street crying. I know that is not the person you want me to be.


Tony and I are presenting this case to you. Our case is based on your word.

God, you said in Genesis 1:28 to be fruitful and multiply. God how can we do that, unless y ou help us?

God, you said in Psalm 112, that our children will be mighty in the land. God how can that be if you don't give us children?

God, we have done everything we can do, now we are presenting our case before you based on your word.

Knowing that you are faithful and true to what you said.

In Jesus name, AMEN

New turns on the roller coaster

AF showed this morning after two days of being MIA. That had to be the longest two days of my life. I had just started to get excited. I finally let Tony in on my secret yesterday afternoon only to disappoint him this morning. He is really great and I feel like $#!+. Physically my body put me through it all yesterday - Headaches on and off that were borderline migrain. Backpain on and off. Tired and insomnia at the same time. It gets better right?

hmmm

Here is something different. It is CD 25. Which means I am one day going on two of being late. Yesterday was torture. Kept waiting. and Waiting. I took an HPT test and pretty much it look negative but I do have the gift to see lines that are not there. I will take another in the morning. I pray this is a good thing. Keeping it to myself for right now. Will tell Tony after the test comes back. Please Jesus I have faith you will work this out.

Feeling very down

I guess this is one of those moments I just don't feel like I can win. It seems the more we try to save the more stuff keeps comming up that we need money for. We are only up to about $6,000K right now. Need at least 6 more. I am dumb founded as to where it will come from. Anytime soon that is. I can put away maybe 2k in August and Sept and I can probably stretch it to 3 k more. Why is this so hard? TEARS TEARS TEARS. Maybe if I cry on this board I wont do it in the office. nope not working. Just not a good day.

Nothing new

Today is such a blah day. My breast hurt (as usual) and I have heartburn with the bonus of a hiccup. It is so heartbreaking to keep having all these "signs" and they never turn out to be anything. I just can't focus on them any more. Need to start thinking of other things.