Back to work today

Wow what an exciting week we have had. Jesus is really at work. On Wed we had 5 follies growing nice and steady - 4 @ 14 1 @13. That is a potential of 5 eggs. Probably because of the holiday but I was told to just stay on 200 mg of Gonal f and trigger on Saturday. At first that excited me because each time I have had two extra follies show up at the last minute. That would make 7 and most places cancel you if you have that many but I think I need every chance I can get. Then yesterday DH produced 75 mil after wash with 83% motility. That is huge. Even for the average guy that is huge. DH produce 1 mil back in April when we started this. Now I am scaired. Where I wanted more eggs for a better chance at one we really are now in a great position for almost 5. Let's see what happens.

Yesterday was crazy cramps also. Today is great. In fact it is really great. I feel almost plugged up. Like my body is keeping something in. I pray this is not my imagination again. In Jesus name AMEN

Now that's what I am talking about

Just got back from the US and I am so excited. We got 3 on the right all size 14 and two on the left one 14 and one 13. This is so great. They are of good size for day 9 and should grow well for the next two or three days. I will still keep talking to them every day and of course prayer will always be covering them. What was cute is that the two on the left are side by side and Laurna called them twins the way they are pressed together like they were one that split in to two. Tommorow is Thanksgiving and I am truly thankful for what I have and what is to come. Thank you Jesus. Thank you for just loving me and keeping close to you. Please Lord, help us to fertilize and implant and bring Tiger and Tigerett in your honor. In Jesus name AMEN!

Not much to report

Not much to report today. Starting to get excited. I feel positive for this cycle. Looking forward to the US tommorow morning. I am hoping we see at least three in great shape. Grow Follies Grow. In Jesus Name, Amen.

Birthday came and went

Friday was my birthday. It has finnally happened that my birthday was OK. Nothing spectacular but an OK day. Tony took me out to dinner. My birthday comes to close to black friday for presents since I rather have the money and go shopping. Next year I hope I am shopping for Tiger's first christmas. There was a crib on sale (I wasn't looking just saw it) and they gave you a changing table for free. I really wanted to get it what a great sale.

Went for bloodwork this morning and I go back on Wed morning for US. Grow follies Grow. My spirits are so much better this cycle I am sure we will get better responders. I have a horrible rash on my chest. Just dry skin so I am increasing my water intake. Also changing soaps. I am sure we will get some good news on Wed. In Jesus name Amen.

Pre week of Thanksgiving

Tony had a great interview yesterday and I am so happy for him. He really feels like this was it.
I started taking the 200 gonal F again. Not much to report. I am visualizing the follicles growing and I want 4. I feel my stiches stretching today. I hope not growing because of fat. We have our work Thanksgiving today. I know the Mac n Cheese and the desserts will call my name and I will answer.

I want Tiger and Tigerett. Thank you Lord. In Jesus name Amen.

Day 2 #4

I went in this morning for Ultra Sound and Blood work. Lorena did it this time and she said that she saw both ovaries and no cyst and lots of little dots ready to begin growing. I do feel more positive about this cycle. I feel like I understand what my body is telling me at different points and I have a mental sense to make things work correctly. I am visuallizing the follicles growing. Going for five again this time.

Tony is interviewing right this second at NCCU. This one I think will work. He sounds perfect for the job and it would also be a challenge and a change for him.

Start making our plans to get out of here and bringing Tiger and Tiggerett with us. YES I am saying it out loud and claiming it. In Jesus Name, AMEN!

Starting over again

On Sunday the Pastor spoke about following the instructions. How God has a plan for us but we must follow the i nstructions. He gave the reference of how a plane has a beacon on its nose that is in a dotted line at all times to the destination point but the tail end of the plane shows the solid path that was actually taken. Many times the plane may have to divert from a storm or another planes path but the beacon is still focused on the destination. I felt like that was a message to me that it may take time and a path not expected but that I must stay on the path and follow instructions.

Today is CD1. Tony guessed I was spotting so I didn't lie. He can also see my saddness no matter how much I try. I reallly have tried to keep him away from it as he has to leave me for the interview. I cried this morning and I just hid and let it out.

I ordered more med this morning and will go in for the BL/US. This time I know there will be more follicle growth. I am ready. Come on Tiger, Mommy and Daddy are ready. In Jesus name. Amen.

Day 10 not looking good

I am not holding out much hope anymore for this cycle. I started spotting this morning and I am sure AF will be here in the morning. I don't want Tony to know and be worried before his interview on Wed so I will deal with this on my own. I know I will handle this. I just think my eyes will tell the story. I know my heart is breaking . . . again. I guess I will order the meds on Tuesday.

Day 8 past iui

Well eight days past iui and so far so good. Still not time to get excited need next week to get here. I have heartburn off and on all day real bad right now. Had some bad naseua to day. Trying to stay calm. Very sleep also. Frankly I just really want to sleep.

Day 7

OK the obession is starting now. I have been having cramps all morning that started with one really strong made you stop your sentence cramp but now are just could take a tylenol (that I don't have) but I wont cramps. Is it the jeans I have on or the famous IMPLANTATION cramps that could happen between day 6-12. I really do have more information about this stuff than a doctor at the point. The really exciting part is this. (and I even went to the bathroom to check again)by my clock I should begin to have some signs of AF. I am usually a 24 day and today is day 24. I also start first thing in the morning like clock work and it is 1:07pm. Trying not to get to excited because they did stem me for a little longer than usuall and the Lorna said that my cycle was controlled by them. Going in for testing on Wed. If I still don't spot before Tuesday I may explode from excitement. Please God be with me in Jesus name. Amen.

Progesterone results

Just got the call that my progesterone results are at 27.9 and the RE wants anything over 11. So I should be happy right? Wrong, last cycle it was 33.7 and I still didn't get pregnant so even this somewhat positive sign doesn't make me happy. I am thankful Don't get me wrong but I am having so many cramps that make me think AF is comming and soon. I go in for testing on next Wed I have yet to make it to testing. AF comes the day before the test like the devil making sure I lose hope. Get thee behind me satin. I rebuke you. In Jesus Name. AMEN.

post iui day 5

Today I had a leg cramp to end all leg cramps. The cramp was so bad I could not speak only make noises and luckily Tony was awake enough to try to help. Help. humph. Why is this man asking me questions when it is so obvious I am in a lot of pain. Then he had the nerve to start touching me and asking is it here? I told myself that as soon as this cramp is over I will kill him, lol!!! My technique to relieve a cramp is to count backwards from 10 over and over. When you concentrate on the counting you manage to relax the muscle. I had to count two or three times. It is now 6 hours later and I still feel the cramp a little in my leg.

Anyway, I went for the progesterone test today. I usually do pretty well with this one. I hope this shows something.

Still don't have high hopes for this cycle. I am just so down and frankly I feel like I have to pump up the world. Work is somewhat busy that helps during this wait.

That's all for now.

three days post IUI

On this trip again. I haven't told anyone. I have even told some that we awaiting to start again soon just to get them off the what is happening now road. I got a feeling I may not even mention that I am pregnant until the baby is almost here. I don't feel different at all this time. Not any real cramps boobs only a little sore. I not even obsessing ever minute, only every other minute. We stemmed for so long this time and although DH count was up his mortility was down not to mention I only produced two follicles ( a third didn't look like it would make it).

This would truly be the it only takes one cycle. Dr. B seemed very upbeat. Even more than when I had the five cycle. Maybe he knows something. (PLEASE GOD let this be the one)

What a great birthday present!!!