Happy New Year!!!

2011 wasn't that bad but I am looking forward to 2012. We should be meeting our boys soon and bringing them home. I guess it is time for the resolutions not in order of priority.

1. Get a better job
2. Stay in the walk with God
3. Learn to be a parent
4. Work harder on Tiger
5. Bring my three boys home
6. Join at least two social organizations
7. Make friends
8. Take a four day vacations
9. Have a real spa day
10. Loosing 75 pounds

Christmas 2011

The more things change the more they stay the same.

I am so blessed but still aching in my heart although the hole is smaller than before.

Thank you Lord for sending you son. For the joy of the season. Happy Birthday Jesus!!

One week down one to go before we will probably hear anything on a date for the next meeting. I watched DH and Family seem to really enjoy this Christmas and I did too but mostly I just wanted to get another day done. One more day closer to getting my boys.

Funny I just keep thinking about them and us and having faith that they are happy tonight and what our future holds.

another day of waiting

Yesterday the relicsening worker came. Her main mission was to see that we have the room for three children as our licesence was for two. We were so afraid of this woman. We were told she was so strict and so mean. She got here and I was so nervous. She actually called and moved our appointment up because she had a death in the family. I was greatful because usually dccfs staff would just put you a week out. I had cookies and punch (hot) for her. Everything was going standard, she complimented the house loved the new beds (even sat on them) loved the crib room (sat on that also and almost broke it). We came downstairs and I complimented her hat and then she sat down for the cookies and we talked liked girlfriends for the next 45 minutes. She really seemed to almost need a friend. She even called the social worker supervisor right here in front of me to report that everything is fine.

Then later that afternoon the social worker called me that afternoon to see if the worker was still here. She said she would call me right back the worker was calling in. That was 23 hours ago.

Ok my boys, I know we won't be together this christmas but I know I will see you soon.

This is where faith kicks in as I have faith that God is protecting my boys.

take a hint and chil

We got the beds together and the Drawer set together. I called the social worker to arrange her visit for Tuesday. Sent and email to the other SW to let her know we are progressing. She sent me back a very nice chil out email. Her email told me that she is still waiting for information from the boys social worker and regardless the next meeting won't happen before the holidays so Merry Christmas.

I understand. This is just a job for them but then again I don't. I hated the holidays when I worked at NACA because I knew people where always wanting a house for christmas. I would explain and explain the process and make sure people understood the cut off dates. I would stay extra late in October and November just to help christmas come for people. I also would make sure that December people knew it probably was not going to happen any time soon.

It just seems that when children are involved priori. . . I just have to be patient.

The beds are here

We put up the twin beds last night. They are side by side but can convert into bunk. We have a new licensing worker and she has given the inclination that she is tough. She was kind enough to give us her cell phone once the room is ready. I will have it ready by this weekend. Just need to put the dresser together. We don't want the room to be crowded and it is tight but not to tight. We will move before the boys get big.

Todays mission is to get pictures, sheets and curtains. Tony wants Fatheads for the wall.

No bounce back

When I email the SW on monday I got the "out of office" within minutes of sending it out. I sent and email today. I needed to know if the meeting tonight was still on. Well no bounce back yet. I think I will go assuming the meeting is on. Hopefully that means she is back at work and able to move our case forward.

The worst part about CFSA is the feeling that only one person works on each part. It seems like no one else is available or has any idea of what is going on.

I got the money today to buy the beds and the lines today. I am doing that because the coupon expires Saturday.

Also running to ATL this weekend for Angela's funneral. I was at her graduations, her wedding and the birth of one of children. I guess this makes it an end of the road.

This run to ATL gets more expensive for the foundation everytime I turn around. It is still cheaper than a flight though.

In other family news - I just don't even feel like it now.

Tuesday

As if it was possible but I do believe this week is longer than last week. I almost feel like yesterday is still here.

"You will get a call at the end of the week or the beginning of next week"

Reason number two as to why I can't go to Angela's funeral in ATLANTA. - I have coupons I have to use on Friday or Saturday. This is actually important. I can get the mattresses for the boys for $89.99 each which is big savings. Regularly the beds are $99 I have a coupon that I can get them for $89.99. Money I won't have until friday and the coupon ends Saturday. Not like I can buy it over the internet.

Patsy has offered to buy the bunk frames as a "baby" gift (welcome gift would be better). That is wonderful. I guess I need to make her somebody's God mother now. May be over all three, like Mavis. My fear is one Godmother out performing the other.

1:32 no call today I am sure.

Missing messages

Since I am the only one following my blog I guess it doesn't matter. Several recent thoughts are gone. The one I wrote about the pre-lim back ground conference. Hard to rehash this moment but for me I fell more in love with my boys. I got to see thier picture. Tony and I were more determined than ever to have them. Friday I had written this statement about how time has moved a the pace of a snail waiting for the next step and call. VL said she would call by Dec 9 to let us know if we are selected as the parents. and then she added the dreaded or it could be before. That puts you in limbo. As I was typing I got word that one of my best friends had passed away. She was 44 years old.

This morning I sent a (keep me in mind) email to VL. I got an out of office reply that she was on emergency leave starting Nov 28. UGGGGHHHH!! What??!!!

My children have been in FC since 2009 they need to come home. Yes I am being selfish I want to have them with me.

Her email directed me to her supervisor who I call and just said my name before she told me that we would hear from them later this week or the first of next week. End of call.

Angela's funeral (wow that was hard to type) is Saturday. In Atlanta. That is a 12 hour drive each way.

I can't get an answer on the boys and I don't want to be out of pocket. I need to be at least 4 hours in the area.

Tony is believing they won't call before next week. We just don't know.

I have their bunk beds ready for me to his send and they will be delivered. A dresser also. I have a good price ready.

OK another slow day.