no luck again

Not sure how I am righ this moment as I am at work and crying just won't with this heat. Started spotting today will see if it turns into full hope it holds off one more day just so I don't see a 23 day trend starting. That may more show less time left to have Tiger. Just really sad right now. I think I could have come to terms with not having a child if I didn't have a husband, because it took so long to come to terms with that part. Then he showed up and I thought great we should be able to get this baby in right under the wire. Now that looks almost impossible and I have no one to blame but myself. I am old. I am overweight. No one but me created this environment.