Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Here we start again

Went in for U/S and Bloodwork today. It is day 2 so there is nothing to report. Probably come back on Friday or Saturday for a checkup.

Emotionally I am a mess. I can't look at Tony. His eyes are filled with so much disapointment. He touches me and I feel undeserving. I don't know what to do. I can't talk about it. I just don't want to go there. I only feel like I need to go away but I can't and I won't.

He is really great and I am so favored by God to have him. I just wish I felt he wasn't being punished to have me.

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