I hate to sound so unhappy but that is where I am today. Frankly, after the last two days of realizing that I am not pregnant I have cried so much I didn't think there were any tears left but there were plenty. I cried yesterday in the Doctors office when Dr. Sacks congratulated one woman. I don't know her story for all I know she just completed IUI 6. The worst part is how my emotions affect Tony. I don't want to hurt him or make him want to go away but he doesn't like seeing me feel bad. I feel caught in a trap. I need to express how I feel but I don't want to make him feel bad. This morning, I just got exhausted. I walked the dogs, made his lunch, made his breakfast, made sure the food and water for the dogs was done, woke Tony up so I can make the bed. One of the dogs peed on the carpet and Tony told me about it. I wanted to cry, why couldn't he just clean it up. I cleaned it up. I forgot I also gave Simba a bath ( he smelled so bad). Then I had to clean the bathroom it was a mess. Now I have to get my self together. I left a bag of trash and after I got dress realized that Dryfeus tore open the trash. Tony walked right passed it, my heart really sank, and then I heard rustling downstairs and Tony came upstairs with a new trash bag. Now I really felt like the most ungrateful person ever. He is so good.
I did start the Gonal F 200mg last night. Here we go again. Please God help us.
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