CFSA Sucks

On Tuesday we had a visit with the social worker. The kids were playing in and out on the deck. The child 2 eventually started in on daily tantrum. He showed the social worker his full rhem. He hit me kick me threw pillows and the same to DH. The social worker began talking to me about getting #2 services and then she mentioned that we should seriously think about taking up FM on the offer to adopt #2. She told me to call FM to come and get #2 now. To send an email in the morning to make it official that we should be working toward that. I cried all night. and the next day but kept telling myself that I was doing what was best for #2. Social Worker even called the next morning saying my letter was not strong enough. Later I got a call from Social Worker's Supervisor telling me that we had not tried long enough. That we had abandonded #2. It was so confusing that SW never mentioned that she was the one who told me to do this. Through with CFSA will just follow directions. Can't wait for the finaly adoption.